sorry not sure what the best way to reply to comments are? Is it best to reply via the comment function, or just add to my post I already started or just start another post altogether? lol..
anyway, just wanted to say that about 7-8 yrs ago, I started getting fed up with hubby's lack of affection, his work-aholic'ness', the fact that he doesn't talk much to the point where we could go a whole week without talking!! I just blew and got really really depressed over it...realised I had honestly fallen out of love with him and we did break up about 4-5 years ago now - that lasted all of about 6 months...we got back together and I worked damn hard to learn to love him again...I'm still amazed - or was amazed at how much I love(d) him...how happy we were - but now this...what a load of bull shit!!
So while I was on cloud9 about 'us' and how far we had come, he was playing along BUT really - he thought I was acting that way cos I was guilty?? WTF is that about?? How could I be sooo fooled?? Am I even making sense?? How could he make me believe he was happy to when really in the back of his mind he was thinking such a terrible thing about me? How could have sex with me twice after our night out...yet be thinking I was trying to hit on someone else just hours before - PATHETIC...his problem NOT MINE! But seriously, he's put out the flame I tried so hard ignite!!
How can I feel or even ACT all lovely dovey now without being accused of being guilty of something sooo stupid? Easy for me to just be numb...feel nothing...what yet - what kind of relationship is that??
Oh well...time will tell...
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Hey there,
ReplyDeleteNot sure that I can offer anything as I am in a secure marriage, although there are certainly things in my relationship that I wish were different.
I found your blog through Janene's I think, but anyway, as for the way you respond to comments, it is your blog hun and completely up to you.