disgusted with myself :(

absolutely disgusted - so much so that I can not bring myself to post or update my weight!!

The past two weeks has seen me NIBBLE like a crazy women and everything BAD!!

The result...we'll I gained two kgs!! 2 FARKIN KGS!! I made it upto 99.4kgs!! When I got back from Samoa three weeks ago I was down to 96kgs...today I am 98.something again...got my period too last night, so that also contributed to the non-stop hunger! Then being Xmas and all that - there is sooo much JUNK food around the place it's not funny!

One of hubby's brothers gave us a whole BOX of chit chats, AND a whole box of Squiggles AND a whole box of Toffeepops!! BIG mistake!!

Then on Xmas eve, SIl made us smoked salmon, cream cheese on piklets - BIG MISTAKE!!! Yesterday I bought some and made some...OMG...a friend gave us a huge basket of goodies...kids got chocolates...I'm gonna need the will power of an Ox to overcome all this shit!!

I feel realy fat! The loose skin gets to me some days...I got a $50 gift voucher for Just Jeans...went in yesterday and I don't like a single thing in the store!! And...they only go upto a sz L, so a little on the small side for me at this stage BUT I didn't like anything there anyway, and I already have sooo many clothes it's not funny!! Anywhoo...still been constipated. My left boob has been hurting for the past 3-4 months - I thought it was just my bra, but finally clicked last night that it isn't...just feels bruised on one side - can't feel any abnormal lumps - but I MUST go to the doctors and get this checked out...actuallyhave lots of things to get sorted. need somemore heartburn meds too.

1:15pm and I haven't done jack crack today! Nothing - nada - zilch. My lower tummy feels so tender, seconda day of my period - I hate feeling like this. The boys have been playing their PS3 all day so far. I